A fabric of lies?

We grow up thinking things are what we've been told.Some of us, at some point of our lives, realize that not everything is the way they say.If we could see things the way they really are, the world would be a different place.Sometimes the things are covered by a fabric of lies that looks like velvet and makes them look beautiful.That beauty is used to keep most people happy and away from the truth.They don't want us to think.The few of us who dare to see through that velvet become outsiders.We won't belong anywhere where we can't see through.

A few words

I've been disconnected for a while.....
some words 'til I rearrange things.
-"Each morning i get up and die a little",somebody to love ,Queen.
-is there a reason to live or die?cause right now I don't feel like any of them.

Lie,

I just tried to die
Cause everything was a lie
I just wanted to die
Cause I just couldn't fight
I just tried to die
Cause nothing was alive
I did wanna die
At least for a night
I try to stay alive
And I do it for her
I try to stay alive
Don't even know her
I try to stay alive
I just try to find her
I just tried to die
Something i never had
I know when i die
Everything will still be a lie

OUTSIDE THE BOX

Sometimes is good to be an outsider because you think outside the box .When you're an outsider and you're conscious about it you can take advantage of it.You are an outsider when you think different and you kind of know the way everybody else thinks.If you know the way people think you can play with their minds.It becomes your own experiment of life.You play with people's minds to see if they react the way you think they would.You learn a lot with this kind of experiments but you have to be careful not to be a victim of your own game.Think outside the box.

A longer while

A few days ago somebody told me to use more my heart(check comments ), in order to deal with women.I confess ,I tried but I couldn't do it.Using your heart is really hard when It's been a while since the last time you had sex.So last weekend I had a sort of a date and I told myself "Use your heart don't ruin it".As soon as I saw her I realized I couldn't use my heart.She looked sooo good!.All I thought about, when I saw her, was SEX.The date went on and we started kissing.We were doing O.K. and I said to Myself "You're gonna get laid".It seemed that was gonna happen.Once again I was wrong.In the middle of the kissing and the touching, She pushed me away.She said "I think we're going to fast"...."we shold go out a few more times before anything happens".That's the girl I was kissing .I mean, My hands were all over her body and she didn't want anything to happen!.What's wrong with her?.I won't waste my time with her anymore.If I'm not sure something's gonna happen,well ,Nothing is gonna happen."FOOL ME ONCE, SHAME ON YOU. FOOL ME TWICE, SHAME ON ME".Now, It's just been a longer while since I had sex.

INTO THE DEPTHS OF THE UNKNOWN a.k.a. HOW TO UNDERSTAND WOMEN

If someone really gets women, please tell me how to do it.I've tried it all.I just don't get them.Damn,I love them but sometimes they drive me insane.Why are they so complicated?.They say NO but mean YES ,sometimes.They say YES and probably mean it.That's not a rule but it's helpful.The problem comes when the say nothing so you have to guess what they mean.No matter what you do in that case, It's ALWAYS WRONG!!!!.
I've learned, They don't really know what the mean.They don't understand themselves but They want YOU to do it.That makes me sick.
I hope there are no hurt feelings.I love women.I'll always do it , It's like a pleasent curse.

BLACK SHEEP

It is so hard to feel powerless. Sometimes It seems you're the only one who can see the truth but you can't do anything to make the others see things the way they really are.You are powerless, and that feeling starts to kill you from the inside.You become society's "BLACK SHEEP" because you can't pretend things are the way they see it.The saddest thing is you begin to doubt about the way things really are,about your own beliefs.You kind of adapt yourself 'cause you are tired of being the "BLACK SHEEP" but you know you don't belong there.Once again you are an OUTSIDER.

Topics

I will write about philosophy, politics, religions...... different things. I'll gladly take any advice or comment but if you do it as outsiders. I mean, you might not agree with me, it's o.k. but Please don't take radical or fanatic positions.Try to make comments like if you were not part of the scenario.

I'm gonna start with a question. Have you ever felt like you belong anywhere?. If your answer is no, you're probably an outsider. I've adapted myself to many environments and I even became part of some of them. I love things from one or another, but I've never felt like I belong here or there. I am an outsider.

greetings from my mind

There are no words to explain how i feel or what i think, however I will start trying it on this blog.