Speechless

No words could explain
What it's like
To be so certain
But so disliked

No word from my mouth
Could say what I mean
There's just a dark cloud
When I try to come clean

I stare at my black veins
Looking for a change
All I see are stains
Coming from my brain

cry

I wish I could cry but I just can't
I Might have reasons to cry
It seems I forgot how to cry
It's been a while since my last tear

I wish I can get you out of my head
little by little on every single teardrop
That's why I want to cry
but actually, I don't wanna cry

I just don't wanna think about you anymore

A Little Happy

I have no reason to say I'm happy. The more I know this fucking world , the unhappier I am.
It seems I've adapted myself very well, but I feel like I'm giving a lot and getting nothing.I just want to get something that makes me happy, ANYTHING¡¡¡¡.It could be an ear that understands what I say, Not these ears around me pretending to be listening. It could be a mouth speaking up for itself, not these mouths around me shouting what they're supposed to say.It could be an eye seeing through all lies not these eyes around me blinded by the people.

Anyway , I know I ain't gonna get any of those things cause I'm an outsider.Actually that makes me a little happy.